Despite Everything With Dan Tickner

"I Abide"

2011-07-01T02:17:00.001-07:00

I live in a city of angels. Not L.A. Fuck you for thinking that.
New York City. A real city with real Angels.

You fucking idiots. You have no idea how many Saints are born a day here.
Not the plastic window display pieces of yesterdays garbage like in Calioformya.

Everyone scrambles around like theyre so god damn busy, but nobodys got anywhere to go. I love it. I live it. I got no-place to go too. No where but down in the shit. Drunk, tired, homeless, fucked up, and done.

I love it. live it.

The Angels here are like none other. The best saviors in the fucking world.
Without those few this city would crumble.

The mortar between the bricks, holding seven levels of city together for a bunch of un-worthy saps. God bless them.

I love it. live it.

"Give us your bullshit and we'll take care of them."
says: the big green statue that's never been robbed or shit on...
Every second of every day I know someone just like me cries themselves to sleep. Someone finds their head in the oven deciding death someone decides the next day they will die.
What is this MONSTER?
What is this BLESSING?
My god, my city, I will abide.

You wish:

2010-01-18T23:10:00.000-08:00

I wish I knew everyone I knew. I wish I knew my past. I wish I knew my future. I wish I knew what was going on. I wish I knew you. I wish I knew it was love. I wish I knew it was anything.I wish I knew I was okay. I wish I knew I wasn't. I wish I knew...

Verticle quarters:

2010-01-18T22:30:00.000-08:00

i sit in front of a table with two quarters standing in front of me; vertical.
the smoke comming from my lungs looks more like a piece of my soul being exhaled than just the normal smoke
and i find comfort in this
i find discomfort in almost everything else
i begin to day dream, a repeatative dream like a lot of the dreams i have, but less terrifying.
with that i pound the table knocking the quarters on their sides as they should be
exhale a little bit more of my soul as i stand
and smile since i know i have quite a few drags of this cigarette to go.

Philosopher:

2010-01-18T22:23:00.002-08:00

hey, if you already dove in head first; why get out of the cold water?

Old n gold

2010-01-18T22:23:00.001-08:00

When things got druggy and ugly the disgusting keep going. So many thing I'll never remeber, and maybe for the best.
I remember connecting triangles outside an upstate nowhere oasis.
Thinking to myself I could be drinking whiskey.
And then why?
I realized a lot about life then.
Old gold never meant more than smoking those cigarettes with you...

New perspective:

2010-01-18T22:07:00.000-08:00

In the unforeseen recent dive into homelessness, couch surfing, and semi-unemployment I've decided that... well, I just don't have the means to paint. No seriously, I'm living under my friends stairs in a crawl space in Bushwick, Brooklyn. Hard to set up a drafting table in a space you can't stand up in. Never fear! In the face of the odds I've rediscovered my love for writing (a creative outlet even the smallest of spaces can accommodate. Take that odds against me! HAHAHAHA!). So, for the foreseeable future that is what you will be seeing from me. I hope you enjoy. I hope you critique. I hope you hate it even. I'll be posting what art I do, but for the meantime it looks like it's going to be mostly bar napkins. Frankly I don't really care. This is what I can do for now and you'll have to all deal. Hope to hear from you all regardless. I'd love to see your recent workings and here goes:

Defiler of food:
Comfort is a cigarette and a bump from a friend. I look for love, but who can love the mess that I've become. I don't blame anybody. I made my cake/bed and I will sleep and eat in it. I just want people to know that this is what happens. You become a desert maker and defiler of food.

I know:
I've been with a million girls. I know; it's nothing to brag about but,
Every once in a long while you have that one. Well, most people do.
For me: I've had that one. The one where when you make love everything is perfect. Dream-like. You wake up and thank god that it's real because she's laying next to you.
My girl who fulfilled everything for me. No matter my preference, fantasy, fetish, ect... she transcended genres. Made my dreams come true with every movement of her body. Even in argument I knew she was the one for me. Maybe even more-so then. The fire behind her eyes when she yelled was like a nuclear bomb dropped on my heart screaming to me how much she loved me as much as the first screamed that this bomb will fuck you up Japan.
Every look from her was like looking into infinite truth about myself. I know I lie to myself to protect myself, but there was no denying then. It was real or no deal. I loved it. I loved her.
The knock out punch of her eyes, a rip off from a beautiful writer Chris Kennedy, but none the less true. Despite everything, despite her hatred, despite her everything, she will forever be the one who got away.

2009-09-27T03:27:00.000-07:00

What might hve been lost...

Some other paintings/drawings/ect... From a little while back.

2008-12-20T17:12:00.000-08:00

Been quite some time. Time for updates.

2008-11-13T09:02:00.001-08:00

2008-04-29T12:40:00.000-07:00

blog stuff

2008-04-29T12:02:00.000-07:00

T-shirt for threadless.com start

2008-04-09T17:01:00.000-07:00

Shits & giggles

2008-03-25T10:56:00.000-07:00

Throwback from Thanksgiving in Brooklyn & more recent Nosferatu sketch.

"Elvis ate America before America ate him"

2008-02-26T14:06:00.000-08:00

invention

2008-02-26T10:24:00.000-08:00

I didn't have a lot of time to do work this weekend because everyone is sick at work. So, I ended up playing bartender way too much. I know it's obvious I didn't spend a ton of time on this. I figured if I had a little robot to help me out I wouldn't have to work or at least I could pass off the stress of it to them. I'm tired of the resturant game.

"Who would win in a fight Lemmy or God?"

2008-02-19T11:01:00.000-08:00

"Lemmy?"
"No! Trick question. Lemmy IS God."

Elvis son.

2008-02-12T11:20:00.000-08:00

For Jeff's Rolling Stone assignment: http://www.rollingstone.com/news/story/5940035/3_elvis_presley. Just a sketch for now. Also: check out Persepolis: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0808417/

Same guy as before with some advice from Jeff

2008-02-05T20:24:00.001-08:00

Thanks Jeff. I think it works way better.

Zodiac Assignment

2008-02-05T19:11:00.000-08:00

Done for Roger Demuth's class. You should look him up. I did Gemini. Can you guess who the twins are? Pen & ink with watercolor. I swear I'm not a pervert. I just like uncomfortable art.

Monsters

2008-02-05T13:34:00.001-08:00

His hands got cut off when I transfered him to photoshop, but the idea is still there. Next weeks blog assignment: vehilcle. Must use Illustrator.

Stuff

2008-02-05T11:01:00.000-08:00

And there we have it...

2008-02-05T10:01:00.000-08:00

It's not letting me upload images today for some sick reason. So, I have nothing to show. I still need to do my "monster" but because this blog is being a pain I will not show you my "imagination" piece either. Updates next week or later today when I get on my own computer that isn't being a hunk of hot garbage.

Heath Ledger DEAD

2008-01-22T15:13:00.000-08:00

My face when I heard the news:

What the hell? Where did that come from? Out of all the celebrities that you EXPECT to die. What about the third BATMAN movie? SUCKSSSS.

2008-01-22T13:20:00.000-08:00

Here's what I did today in Jeff's class. It was fun. This isn't my own drawing. I just colored it a bit. Then we learned about layer masks and how to color our linework. A skill I forsee being very helpful in the future. I day dream now of making it to the bank before 6pm.
Next weeks art for the class: Imagination.

Yeah, all I draw is vikings... so what?

2008-01-22T10:32:00.000-08:00

I can't help it if they're pretty much the best thing ever. I want to finish him in photoshop tonight. Viking in winter, go.

Well...

2008-01-15T11:07:00.000-08:00

First post of my brand new blog. Just want to get it over with. I'm nervous, so im taking the quick "band-aid" approach.